Always rise above.......

This is just some personal ramblings and thoughts I have had lately that I thought I would post. I have been working on a presentation for my weekend class that my group chose the topic of Autism for, not me. I figured well it's easy for me and at this point I am ready for easy so I agreed to it. Well just like the other three projects I have done with this group, I am the only one to do any work. In this process it has made me reread and kind re-experience some past emotions and such. The last few years have been really really hard. Then I heard on the news that some talk show person said some really nasty things about children with Autism and it made me really angry. I ranted to Zach about how it's not the child's fault and how unfair that is to the child. It's not the parents fault and it has taken me all this time to finally come to terms with that.....actually it took a pshycologist telling me. Anyway.....

I couldn't sleep last night and then woke up to another email from a group member that could not remember the topic we chose for our presentation! I wanted to email back and chew her out for dropping the ball for the 4th time! I wanted to post a nasty blog about the talk show person saying mean things about children with autism......then I realized it was my time to rise above.

I am educated now about Autism, not by choice, but by necessity. It is amazing how one word can change a person's life, but I like to think I have risen above it. The path has not been pleasant and has required a lot of work, but I look at Cody now and he is amazing! How a year and half ago he had no words to tell me what he needed, wanted or anything to now telling me "mama go away I do it" is absolutely amazing to me. No nasty blog is going to change what was said by that guy.

And as for my group.......well I am taking classes to truly earn my degree and hopefully continue on the path to helping more children with special needs. I am three classes away! and so what if I did the whole presentation myself. That just gives me the rewards not them. Going to college has been one of my greatest accomplishments and also one of the hardest things I have done. A nasty email back is not going to solve anything.

So today I am rising above the nasty words, above the lack of particiaption from my group. I am not going to be hurt by the words or angry (anymore) at my group members. Like this hot air balloon (that I took a picture of on the way home from Legoland) I am rising above it all!